Dedication

My daughters baby dedication is this Sunday.  I am so excited! This is a time to give my child back to God and assure him that I want him to guide my child and thank him for such an amazing blessing.  All of her dad's family and my family will gather together at church on Sunday, November 14, 2010.  We will sit together in the front of the church.  My pastor will preach to all of the mother and father's of the babies being dedicated back to God and then he will pray for each family.  My daughter will get her first bible with her name and birthdate printed on it for her keep sake.  Her "marmie" has homemade her dedication dress.  It means a great deal to me to have her make her dress.  She and I were roommates and very close at one time.  She is very dear to my heart.  I have yet to see the dress, it is in the mail on it's way to me! This is also a great time to get some of my family in church that hasn't been in such a long time. A two-fold happy day for myself!!!

Weather

Ahhh!!! Cooler weather at last!!!

This past summer was sooo long for me and it has felt like forever since it's been really coooold!! Burrr! And I'm sure me being pregnant would contribute to my summer feeling like it lasted forever because it was extra hot for me. And now it's even November and still it really isn't as cold as I would like it to be!!! But, definitely so glad for the rain and the COOLER weather that has visited us!

As I say that I love cooler weather, I only like it because my cutest clothes are winter clothes! lol I think winter clothes are by far the cutest of any season.  I have so many that at this point I do not have room for all of them!!! I must go through them and give some away and put some in storage. I LOVE winter clothes!

Also, I only like colder weather for November and December, the holiday seasons.  After Christmas, I am ready for spring!

I would say spring would be my favorite season of them all though. Spring, everything blooms and is so colorful, and the weather is amazing!! And sadly, in Louisiana, we have a very small portion of spring, it's so sad to me!!

Sickness

Agh! Last week I was so sick! This mess has been going around, although, I'm definitely the lucky one that did  not get strep throat that EVERYONE seems to be getting!!! Last weekend I had the worst throatache ALL weekend and then monday had to miss work because of it, then, came to work the next day... and omg, I just got worse as the day went by. I missed work the next day as well but definitely went to the doctor and got not ONE but TWO shots and wow did they hurt!!! BUT, they made me feel SO much better!!! But, unfortunately the runny nose and yucky in my throat is holding on for dear life. =( I ended up having sinuitis, which isn't near as bad as many other people I know getting strep throat! So, I guess I should feel blessed and lucky that it hasn't gotten that bad!!!

On My Mind

So, I'm trying to figure ways to deminish bills in my life. Being single and doing whatever I pleased brought about stupid decisions and produced bills for myself just as most of us have done.  Now, that I have a baby girl I'm trying to figure out what I can do to get rid of bills as soon as possible.  I regret so much for buying my new car, well two years old now but with a nice fresh payment every single month.  It was okay to pay this much for a car when I was single and free to do my own thing and time to work a second job to pay for my things that I just felt I needed but was really not necessary and only a want in my life.  I now have to pay for this desire that I had two years ago, although, I LOVE the car, I just do not LOVE the payment! 

We all make mistakes with our credit and making bills that should not be in our lives. But, thankfully it's never too late to try to fix it and pay them off!  I can't say that I didn't have people in my life to direct me in the correct way when it comes to achieving good credit but I definitely can say I strayed from those instructions. I am now trying to get back on the right path and fix those "problems" in my life now.  At times I feel overwhelmed but I know that eventually I'll get to the point in my life that I desire!

Found a job!!

I now have a job!!! Thank God! I was really beginning to get worried with the job hunt.  I recently applied at Jean Simpson in hopes they would find a job for me because I absolutely hate looking for a job!  It took 2 weeks but I landed a job at Lander's Dodge answering the phones.  I actually really like it! I like the interaction I have with  the public.  My other job that let me go because I had Addison was extremely boring with very little interaction with the public because it was a very new business.

I do not like leaving my little girl at all!! I had a break down yesterday because of holding it in that it upset me so much to leave my angel.  It's not fair at all to watch someone else spend the most time with her.  It just isn't right, but I'm very blessed to have my Aunt to babysit her.  I do not have to put her in daycare just yet.  I will want her to go eventually to have interaction with other children but not anytime soon!!!  So, to have the luxury of having my aunt, I have to sacrifice and drive all the way to Benton to have her wonderfull Aunt to take care of her.  But, the sacrifice of driving, getting up extra early to get there and work on time, and gas money is all completley worth it. 

I'm hoping that this job becomes permanent as most jobs with Jean Simpson are not, although, I have been told in all other words that I am permanent.  I thank God for my job!!!

Unemployment

So, I'm still looking for a job. 

I had the piece of cake job that I did NOTHING all day long. Well, a few things but being a new business we didn't have many new customers.  But, it was growing and slowly establishing customers. So, I had been asking the head boss (in Longview, Tx) what exactly was going to happen when I needed to take time off with having my baby girl. He finally decides to tell me about 3 weeks before I had Addison that my job position was not going to be available to me if I had to take any amount of time off with my little girl. So, here I am looking for a job. 

I have been to Jean Simpson in hopes to find a job.  But, today I was told that I should go do Substitute teaching and Wow, I thought... why haven't I thought of that!?! It isn't the best money but it will work until I can find a job! It will help out alot!!! And I've always wanted to be a teacher at different points in my life. And now that I have a little girl, I really want to be a teacher after recieving my bachelors in business. The hours would be perfect for when she starts going to school.  So, glad to have been given this idea today until  can actually find a better paying job!

Sweet Angel Baby

I will write alot about my baby because she is what consumes all of my time, which, I love it beyond words!!! She has shown me what real love is in a way that I never expected.  I was a nanny for 4 years until last year around Febuary.  I throughly enjoyed just about every minute of it. And I got really attached to all the children I was a nanny for but I was always told that it's different when you have your own child and honestly, I could never even try to imagine how different it is and probably will only realize that more and more every single day.  She is absolutely perfect in everyway.  She is a very healthy baby and growing like a weed! I look at her birth pictures and feel saddened because I already want to go back to that day and she is only a month old.  I'm told many times that she will grow up faster than I can imagine and I'm already a believer.  She is now 8 lbs and 14 oz as of Friday the 26th.  She was 6lbs and 14 oz when she was born on August 19, 2010.  I'm totally in love with her. I thank God for the blessing he trusted with me, although, I have no idea why he would count me worthy enough to take care of an angel like my baby girl!!! But, I shall try my best to raise her to love God and raise her with morals and values that she will have a successful life!